... thinking of you. Lately, I haven't been able to focus or concentrate. I've felt as if I had lost a part of myself. People tell me all the time that it's not worth the trouble. I tell myself that too, sometimes, as a lie. But, a part of me just can't let go, because it doesn't want to. I don't know what's wrong with me. I shouldn't be acting this way. I should be glad that my life is moving forward.. shouldn't I? That is.. if it even is moving forward. It doesn't feel like it. Maybe I need to learn to accept the truth, again. Even when the truth hurts.
It's been a rough week, so many things came up. Big things.. to little things.. I've been so easily annoyed at everything! I can't help it. I try so hard to ignore the little conflicts, but I just couldn't do it. Lately, I've felt a lack of motivation and inspiration to do anything. There were days where I was just depressed and cried. There were days where I felt like I was wasting my time and so I gave up. and there were those days where nothing just made sense to me anymore.. Sighs... I think I'm still in denial, as well ..
Sunday, 29 August 2010
“I am a hopeless optimist. I see the good in people always and sometimes that gets me into trouble but I really see no other way in living life. I believe in people over and over again, even if they have let me down, and I continue to believe that they will change for the better.” - Sophia Bush